So in my last post I talked about how I basically got rejected by a girl, but then the next day she changed her mind, and we've been going out for a couple of weeks now, and it's been absolutely amazing. So I'm extremely happy about it, and I only hope it lasts.

One strange thing about the situation is that I feel like I can't admit to myself (Of all people) that I love her. In fact I find myself questioning it. When really, I know I do. I'm pretty sure it's because of my first love, who ended up cheating on me. I'm not sure why, but I think maybe I'm just afraid to admit that I love the new girl because maybe I feel like that'll just make it feel worse if things don't work out. It's ridiculous on many levels.

I feel it though. I mean after my first girlfriend I didn't date anyone for about a year, and within that time I met this girl. She was the first girl to actually take my mind off of Ellie (The first), and I felt something for her but it was basically just a "crush" (I hate using that word). After a lot of time it has evolved though. I mean she's the first girl I've felt anything like this for since Ellie. And actually typing this out has really helped me put it in perspective actually.

So I guess I have no choice to admit this to myself (And her), that I love her. And that's the truth.

But now I'm going to divert a bit to say something else: I'm currently listening to Sage Francis's album "Road Tested," and it's amazing. Sage is my hero. Seriously. It just needs to be said.

Anyway, I guess that's enough for now, I have so much I can say but I think I'll cut it off here, I got the important stuff down. :)