So apparently I've lost a friend. One of my best friends in fact. She allegedly wants nothing to do with me anymore on account of I'm not a Christian. *Ahem* And they say religion does more good than harm. This is one thing about it that greatly annoys it. Some people will alter their lives, alter the here and now, soley for a promise of something at the end. Do they truley believe that this promise is true? Yes, they are so sure of themselves and in fact have no doubts. And so they see no problem with changing their current life, because hey, the end is not actually the end, but another life supposedly.

I, on the other hand, would rather enjoy my life to the fullest right now, because I'm pretty sure this is it. Am I right? No, because I cannot be sure. Could there be a God? Yeah, I don't see why not. Is it logical? Not really, but I also have a hard time believing that the entire universe used to be condensed into a tiny mass the size of a marble. All in all, like I said, I'm here to enjoy myself now, and I'm not going to judge people based on their beliefs of the afterlife, or a lack thereof.

She is an amazing person, and a great friend. And now she allegedly hates me. Why? Because I, apparently, tried to "corrupt" her in some way. Did I? Not intentionally. In the middle of a religious discussion we somehow got into last night, which I now wish we hadn't even gotten into, I asked, purely out of curiousity, not suggesting anything at all, if she had read anything regarding atheism, simply to see if she knew stuff about the other side. This of course greatly offended her, because she assumed I was suggesting she should (Maybe there was some undertone I wasn't aware of).

I do think that people should get both sides of an argument before making final judgement, but I'm not going to push anyone to do so. I'll let people live their life the way they want, and make decisions the way they want, so long as they aren't trying to mess with me. I would be offended by the sheer fact that she would take offense to my question, but I know better than that. What's really weird is how she - even though she claims she never has - so constantly pushed God at me. Sure, she never directly said "hey, you should go read the bible," or "you should be christian," or anything like that. But I never said "hey, you should read some atheist stuff" either.

What's my point? My point is that it bothers me that I'm losing a friend over such trivial bullshit. The argument wasn't even useful, because it's not like either of us would convince the other of anything. I don't want to lose her, but I guess I have absolutely no choice in the matter. It's her decision, and if she wants it like this, then so be it. I will be sad about it, but there's nothing I can do about it.

I don't wish that she wasn't Christian or anything. I just wish that she wouldn't try to change her life simply to live in some bubble of comfort that'll probably end up hurting more than helping. I don't want her to ruin friendships over this, be it just mine or other peoples as well.

It's sad.