I don't feel like typing a lot right now. So a quick update will suffice:

Basically I start college next Wednesday, so that should be interesting. First quarter I actually only have one class, which I found to be a bit strange. It's called "Information Systems," I honestly don't even know what it is. So you know, that seems like a good way to start college haha.

I'm looking for a better job. I love my job right now (Which is dishwashing for a small cafe) in that I can listen to music at work, it's easy, and there's no uniform, but mainly the music... But I just don't get paid enough, or rather, I barely get any hours at all. So a new job would be nice. I'm looking into Byerly's, cause then I can work with one of my best friends, which would make up for the lack of music, and it pays more with guarenteed hours.

Speaking of work I have to go to work in about an hour and a half.

Other news, concerning other things, can be found in some of my posts. Relationship stuff has been thoroughly thought about and whatnot. There's this one girl who I really like, and she likes me too, and fuck, we even went out once (Kinda), but she's reluctant to start a relationship with me because she's a senior in high school and I already graduated, plus she lives kinda far away. And then I have all these thoughts that kinda go against myself, and that story can be found here: Conspiracy Against Myself

In other news, I have created a random YouTube video.
Direct link to video.
BBS Topic about said video.

And finally, a new song I have released! Details are as follows:

My new song "Blur" is finished! There's still a couple of spots that are troublesome, but I've accepted that I'm never going to perfect a song, especially with my technology.

Without further randomness, PLEASE CHECK OUT MY NEW SONG! It's the FIRST song I've recorded for my newest album, Tunnel Vision.

Link to "Blur": http://media.putfile.com/StarF---Blur

(More stuff after lyrics!)

StarF - Blur

This is where the story starts
(This is where the story starts)
Reconsider what I said
The truth it changes, look ahead
Forget the trail of broken hearts
(Forget the trail of broken hearts)
Now begins the next endeavor
I'll be chasing dreams forever

Got the message, hesitated
Wonder if it's bad news related
Enjoy the time I bide to think
But will it stop the flood in which I sink?
Of course not, the futures rolling near
And now there's no way out of here
Although it's not like I want release
I've just been searching for some peace
It eludes me but I still dream of clarity
Check my words for full sincerity
To others, to myself, I cannot lie
And so I know that I have to try
Open message, take of glasses
Blurred the future, the time it passes
Read the words through failing vision
Contemplate with indecision
Glasses on and I face the reality
I can take the truth thanks to my mentality
And yet I feel the need to blur
When the message comes from her...

They say it's easy I've just gotta be cool
I need to play the part not play the fool
But it's not like it matters what they say
In the end I have to do this my own way
And if that way is always failure bound
I'll reflect on mistakes and drown them in sound
And the future shines with new chances
For my strange and flawed advances
Take my breath and give me hope
I always find a way to cope
A feeling like this has long since been felt
But you cause my insecurities to melt
Until you're gone and they reappear
And I want them to go away, get out of here!
The thoughts they scream every mistake
Till I don't know how much more I can take
That's the reason for removal of glasses
And the slow crawl of sand, the time it passes
Blurry words wont change the message sent
But they seem to disguise the background intent
To avoid adjustment I strain my eyes
Bend the message, revel in lies
I can't believe I think with such delusion
Blind my mind with forced confusion
Face the truth, the hourglass shatters
It's not like the flow of time even matters
The truth may hurt but it's necessary
Nevermind the fact that your words might scare me
I know unhazed truth breeds opportunity
And that lends me hope for our possible unity
So I forget the risk of what I read
And instead think of what I need
I need to read it clear without distraction
Glasses on; prepare for reaction
As I read I realize I have a smile
Because even though it's been awhile
I wouldn't trade the world to have this chance
So on reflection, on just another glance
I can deal with the truth, nevermind the blur
As long as I even get that chance with her...

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Alright! That's my new song. If you want a bit of an explanation, the story behind it is that I'm a weird guy. That much is apparent. But here's the deal, I've always had this thing where when I receive a message from someone, usually a girl, and it's going to be this long serious message (Whether I know the intent or not. Could be good, could be bad, could be just random), as long as it's something serious I have a habit of removing my glasses and reading slowly from a distance, so the words are blurry.

I don't know why, but that's what I do. It's like somehow it makes it easier to deal with what I'm reading. If it's bad news, it somehow takes the blow out of it. If it's good news, for some reason it makes it seem more exciting. I can't explain it, I'm just strange.

But then after I read the entire message blurred, since I know what I'm in for, I put my glasses on and re-read it clearly, as if I'm seeing it for the first time.

I'm very strange. But that is the background behind this song.

Feedback is always welcome. Thank you so much. <3

<3 StarF