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StarF68
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Alls well that continues well

Posted by StarF68 - March 8th, 2008


So in my last post I talked about how I basically got rejected by a girl, but then the next day she changed her mind, and we've been going out for a couple of weeks now, and it's been absolutely amazing. So I'm extremely happy about it, and I only hope it lasts.

One strange thing about the situation is that I feel like I can't admit to myself (Of all people) that I love her. In fact I find myself questioning it. When really, I know I do. I'm pretty sure it's because of my first love, who ended up cheating on me. I'm not sure why, but I think maybe I'm just afraid to admit that I love the new girl because maybe I feel like that'll just make it feel worse if things don't work out. It's ridiculous on many levels.

I feel it though. I mean after my first girlfriend I didn't date anyone for about a year, and within that time I met this girl. She was the first girl to actually take my mind off of Ellie (The first), and I felt something for her but it was basically just a "crush" (I hate using that word). After a lot of time it has evolved though. I mean she's the first girl I've felt anything like this for since Ellie. And actually typing this out has really helped me put it in perspective actually.

So I guess I have no choice to admit this to myself (And her), that I love her. And that's the truth.

But now I'm going to divert a bit to say something else: I'm currently listening to Sage Francis's album "Road Tested," and it's amazing. Sage is my hero. Seriously. It just needs to be said.

Anyway, I guess that's enough for now, I have so much I can say but I think I'll cut it off here, I got the important stuff down. :)


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Don't even worry about qualifying it, man. Enjoy what you got if you still got it. When the both of you feel comfortable with calling it love, things'll get there.

Thanks, that makes a lot of sense. ^_^