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StarF68
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Too late to make up for lost time

Posted by StarF68 - February 25th, 2008


NewGrounds, I am sad. Why? Well, a few reasons really. Not that you care, but hey, that's why it's in my blog, so shut the fuck up and stop reading if you don't feel like wasting your time. :)

So today at school I asked my friend out. She's awsome, and we get alone really well, and hang out all the time. Hell, people already think we're going out, but we're not. So I asked her out, and she said she had to think about it. She ended up saying no. This is obviously sad, but hey, what can I do?

What I'm more sad about is the wasted time. For me it's not like I just go start a relationship. I've known this girl for almost two years now, and I really like her. It's the first time I've felt something this strong for a girl since my last girlfriend. For me it takes time.

And so the fact that she'll likely never go out with me makes me feel like it was all for nothing. And that hurts much worse than being rejected.

My next relationship could be years away at this rate. :(

I somehow feel like I'm "missing out" on the whole dating scene. I mean I'm almost done with high school for fucks sake. It's my damn views of love and importance that make this happen to me. I'm obsessed with love. I wont go into a relationship unless I'm serious. This is a very good thing, but sometimes feels like a very bad thing, mainly for the reason above.

As much as I know I "should" wait for love, and in my mind it's set that way, I want to be in a relationship with someone anyway. You only live once, and time is fleeting. I guess I want the best of both worlds, I want a meaningful relationship, and I want it now. Damn I'm greedy.

Fuck I really wanted her though.

Now I guess I play the waiting game some more.


Comments

Even though I could elaborate somewhere else, I'll do it here. Maybe time will tell eh? Do you think there is a remote chance of something happening with you and her?

See new news post, lulz. ^_____^